Die Young and Save Yourself

but im in a cranky mood. Swimming I think, and the fact that school sucks horribly. This weekend is the last of the show. Im happy about it but then not. I've come to love all the kids. they are great. But im so sick of the show. The jokes make me want to shoot myself. Sooo swimming I swear it does suck. Practices are so fierce. But im going to a show a week from friday and I am going to crowd surf and get hurt and it will make up for all the F'ed up days im having. Im looking forward to my birthday. Its a exactly a month away. Then Christmas and then I get my car and then my license so i can go far away to fairmount and make a long awaited visit. and for the record I hate boys. Im watching peter pan. Its kinda depressing bc its basically describing how children lose there inocence(yes i know spelled wrong) gahh. We might be moving. I sure hope so bc im so very sick of claymont. Idk things suck right now. until my bday nothing is getting better. BLEH. FUCK LIFE

So over the weekend, i went on a retreat and well friday night me n lizzy, ashleigh n megan stayed up til like 4 haha. so i was extremely tired. then saturday night we went to bed at like 1 or 2. then sunday i wasnt feelin so hot. I had a cough n i was feelin like throwin up, so then i came home n slept then i woke up n i threw up n it was siccckkk. then I went downstairs to see my brother, n then i threw up again (sry derek, I wish we coulda talked more :-/ ) so then yesterday i stayed home and it sucked bc i kept coughing n stuff and i couldnt go to rehearsal. psh. n i threw up again. sick again. So still didnt go to school today. and i still feel like crap n i woke up at like 1 last night and couldnt fall back asleep til like 6. gahhh. i hate being sick. No fun at all. But the colts won woooooot. so that makes me muy happy :-) !!!! and i have fall break thurs-mon. and i get to see my aunt karen & uncle John in fort wayne sat. Im soooooo xcited. woot woot panic! at the disco. go listen to this bannnddd. I get to see em nov. 18th. yesssss.

O M G. John Cannon pisses me off hardcore. I hate ppl WHO ALWAYS NEED TO HAVE A G/f and he asks me for advice psh. w/e. all he wants to do is get "with" them. I hate boys.

i went to a show. it was dulce. but im f'ing sore. gah. crowd surfed pretty sweet. I got dropped n landed on my tail bone. O shib. it hurt. goin to see silverstein oct 27. its gonna be awesome. fall retreat this weekend. cant wait. sooo fun. school still sucks. I hate plainfield.

I hate ppl. and school. but mostly ppl. cant wait to graduate high school.

Im single and it feels kinda good. but it was weirdness bc john was trying to get back with me tonite at the football game . . . straannnge.Brandt's going back to Michigan next friday, for good this time, and it sucks. i really dont want him to go, hes def. amazzzing x's 7 billion. Havent talked to Nate for awhile, but he tried callin me the other day. School still sucks. grrr. I hate it, and I miss musical hardcore. I just wish summer were here again so I can be with all my HCT friends. I get to go to the steve miller concert tomorrow nite. .. yay. I cant wait til falloutboy in Nov. I need to go to a show ASAP. well ya . . . l8rz.

im in a good mood now . . . lol . . . ummmmm but ya . . . football game tomorrow woot woot. school pics tomorrow too! omg I <3 spanish! Brian Griffin totally is amazzzzing and we are gonna try to go to the Elton John Concert. and ooo there is a def. hottie in my spanish class . . . hes a junior ahh. n damn i have no fricking classes with Brandt . . .grrr. I see him like 2 times during the day. pssssh. and I still dont see my hottie kels. wow . . . but hey matt ur still def. so flippin kewl. we will hang out soon. well ummmm im goin to the steve miller concert this weekend! im sooo xcited! yay . . . well dunno wut else to say . . . l8rzz

I hate school. I am in an extremly bad mood . . . grrrness. goodness i just hate life as of now . . . blah.

well Im home from Cali. Yesterday was a looonnnng day and lots of crazy stuff happened. Ill just sum it up saying that EVERYTHING that could have gone wrong went wrong. The worst prolly was missing our flight in colorado and having to wait 4 hrs . . . but it was ok bc we played 9 hole and some guy from Oklahoma played with us too. but neways . . . i started school today. bummerooskie on a frickin stick. chemistry is gonna kick me in my ass . . . and so is algebra 3 4. but w/e. lol but im happy bc Alex, Colin, Matt, and David are in my CHAP class! fuuuuun. I <3 them so much. and Im gonna TA for Mackey. its gonna be sooo fun. but I have no classes with Kelsey. NOT kewl. but wow . . . i was readin my friends livejournal . . . n he broke up with his girlfriend brianna . . . :tear: they were so darn cute too!! shucky durn. well i guess everything happens for a reason . . . but O M G. the school musical is in april and they are thinking bout doing Oklahoma. fun. I need another musical to do in my spare time or I will just go nuts . . .hhhhmm . . darn shoulda tried out for 42nd st. @ footlight . . . o well. well i need a shower so l8rzzz!

2 more days in cali then im home. Im kinda excited now to come home tho . . . but cali is kewl. I have been shopping ALL week long n have some awesome stuff. I cant wait to come back n hang with ash n kevin tho woot. We bought ash these pink dickies, they r cuteness. but ummmm . . . Disney land is awesome and I love it much. school is close . . . I have 2 days left! ahhh. its gonna be craziness . . . I just hope I have friends in my classes. but omg . . . I cant wait til November when Fall Out boy, THe Starting line, and Motion City soundtrack are in Indy . . . me n ash are goin n its gonna be so fun. woot. ahhh ash's bday is less than a month away! sept 12, idk wut to get her . . . well idk wut else to say. l8rz

YAY! Im in California right now . . . wooooot. The flight was horribly long tho. N I had to get up at 5 this morning!! yikkkkkes. but ummmm Its really awesome here in Cali. I Love it! cept its kinda chilly. hhmm . . . weird. but lets see wut I did today, well we got off the plane and we went to Joe's Crab Shack, and then we went to the Mall, then went to the hotel, then went to the boardwalk (HOT HOT HOT guys) then we went to the cheesecake factory. but omg . . . all the guys here are skaters or surfers. Its quite wonderful. Im so xcited bc I think We might be going to Disney Land! woot. OMG tho . . .school is so flippin close. but i get to shop all week so its all good. but today i bought 3 shirts, and spent most of my money lol . . . but the shirts were, a Horrorpops tshirt, Interpol tshirt, and Taking back Sunday tshirt. wooootedy woot. but ummmm We are gonna go to some vintage shops too . . . gosh I <3 to shop . . . Im pretty tired tho bc its 11:43 in Indy, but 9:43 here . . . I am gonna sleep soooo well tonite . . . but I have service in cali . . . so ppl should call me! I was gonna call Kevin but i realized it was too late, and our tv doesnt have MTV and I wanted 2 watch laguna beach, and I was gonna have Kevin tell me bout it . . . o well tomorrow maybe. Well idk wut else to say . . . I might update later this week.
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Back from Dale Hollow. N i am so happy to be home bc i want to sleep in my bed, but I had fun x's 7 billion. Tomorrow I leave for California! OMG i am so flipping xcited. it is going to be sooooooooo dulce. but ummmm def. got my schedule. idk if I have ne classes with neone yet . . . but um heres my schedule
Chemistry
Concert Choir
US History Honors
English10 Honors
Algebra2
Spanish2
Study Hall

ya im pretty happy that i have a flippin study hall 7th hr. yesss. Especially bc 1st semester is gonna be total craziness. BUT . . . ummmm . . . ya. Im not so annoyed that school is gonna start, but i think I need to call ashley. SO l8rzzzz.

while im on vaca. ppl should call and talk 2 me even tho i hate talkin on the fone lol but still all im doin is fishin so its ok! 317-443-0196!!!

YAY. leavin for Dale Hollow Tomorrow! Its gonna be so dulce. But yesterday was so kewl. Bc I got to hang out with Kels and Smitty and Brandt and jackson and Kayleigh. It was pretty dulce. Kels is so hot too. Brandt is mean tho bc he took off my shoe n kicked it in the parking lot . . . psssh. Jerk. lol but i am gonna get him back so it doesnt matter. but umm I had coffee and it was good. Smitty is an awesome person too bc he came n picked me ash n my sisters up at my house so we could go to starbucks! woooot. but gees . . . ummmm . . . Today def. went to Taco Bell and they werent doin so well today. It was lame. I was goin to go to the movies today but nope. But its kewl bc me n matt are gonna party hard when i get back from vaca. but geeees. Everybody have an awesome time b4 school starts. l8rzzzz

ok so there is 2 weeks til school starts. O gosh. i am just not ready! But I miss the musical lol o and this just biffs me off so much lol bc wendy (the director) was havin this party thing friday, and ppl were gonna spend the nite and it would have been sooo fun . . . but noooooo im on vaca. with my dad. lol but ya umm . . . Brandt is goin to PHS for the 1st semester. woot go brandt. And my good friend Nate called me last nite too. So i am in a good mood. but wow . . . I woke up at 4:30 this morning and I couldnt fall back asleep for a really long time . . . grrrr. Im kinda groggy, but awake, and I think I am going to the pool today. Then I need to do my laundry bc thurs. is when i leave for vaca. n then we come back and then the next day we leave for california. ahh. fun fun. but omg, if i didnt already have flippin plans i was gonna hang out with kels and smitty and Brandt . . .but noooo already had plans. Kels omg tho we need to hang out asap!!!!!!! bc i miss you lots and lots! but ummmm wow . . . idk wut else to say . . .wait. Fall Out Boy is gonna be here Nov. 18th and I am going to that show. ya but ummmm . . . l8rz

had a show tonite. It went super well. I am quite tired tho. BUT . . . omg. I am in a good mood. I took a chance today and I am happy. but ya . . . Tomorrow is our last show and I am so sad bc I have had so much fun with it this summer. grrrrrr. gosh I am just gonna miss everyone! and school is gettin close too . . . ahh. but at least I still have 2 vacations to go. woot. Im watchin the chappelle show right now. its so funny. gah. I really need to get to bed. but ummm . . . l8rzzzzzzz

ya so idk how many times I have to flippin update this, and geees i bet hardly anyone really reads this but LOL i just dont care! so neways, ummmmmm first . . . Kels and Smitty came over today and then we went to Mcdonalds n it was gooood. Then we went to Brandt's house, then we all went to Franklin Park, n it was fuuuun. But OMG i am sooo happy that Brandt doesnt hate me lol bc I was scared that he did, but ummmmmm ya I really hope that he goes to Plainfield for a semester bc that would b super diva. but ummm ya then I went over to my dads, then I went to Karas, and then me Lizzy and Kara went to the Fair, and it was super fun and we saw John there, n we sorta hung out with him and we looked @ animals and Now i am home and tomorrow we are having a garage sale . . . fuuuuun . . .no not really. Its gonna be really boring. But then tomorrow night we have a show again and Kels is coming and maybe brandt. and then The Kotarski's(sp?) are havin a party thing after the show, and that will be super awesome, but OMG bc i am gonna mention him more in my LJ's lol . . . Matt good luck on ur drivers test thing wooot hope all goes well luv (hah i totally stole that from you.) ya but ummmm . . . I guess thats all! l8rzzzz

gees. I have not updated my myspace very much . . . gr. ummmm ya wow i update this alot but i dont think ppl read it cept for maybe Kels hahaha ummmm well Im hanging out with ash and im so lazy its not even funny and OMG i am gonna go to the state fair and I am super xcited. yes. but tonite might go to the county fair . . . but idk yet bc i have to talk to kara but ummm . . . lol idk wut else to say, OMG i thought somebody was breaking into my house this morning bc me n ash were sleeping on the couch and then someone was trying to get in the front door, then went to the back door and tried to get in, then the garage door opened and they came in through the garage, n i was like Derek is that you? but it was ben. and I was scarrrred, bc i thought it was some scary guy! lol but umm ya l8rz

mmmk so . . . today mom woke me up at 9:30! lol grrrrr. So i had to go to my dads bc he wanted us to do house work . . . blaaahhh. The house looks sooo different. ya so i was supposed to hang out with matt lol but noooope, I drove my dad to the south side bc he had to go get something fixed on his car. sooo then ummmmmm went to musical practice and it was pretty fun bc it was brush up and we didnt have to wear our costumes, so then Kenny gave me a ride home but we went to taco bell first, wooooot bc i got a chalupa lol . . . yuummmm. ya so umm ashley is here right now and she makes me laugh bc she is obsessed with her message on an answering machine and it is just so funny. lol So tomorrow I think I might be goin to the fair with kara but ummm this person from Kentucky keeps callin my sisters cell fone hahahaha lol im just really hyper lol but ummm idk wut to say! l8rzzz come to the musical Im in . . . its this friday!


Friday, July 29th - 8pm
Saturday, July 30th - 8pm
Sunday, July 31st - 2:30pm

brownsburg rec center
111 Eastern Ave.
Brownsburg, IN

$8 for people under 18
$10 for adults

ok so . . . today was kewl . . . i guess. Woke up to ash calling me lol . . . then ummmm didnt do anything haha i read harry potter most of the day, then went to dads, and then we went to Papa Joe Jr.'s yummm and canolies are amazzzzing. Then we went to the County fair. goooooodness. n we went on this one ride twice and i felt like throwing up hardcore. but it was still awesome but the guy who was running the ride was creepy and trying to look kewl in front of these cheerleaders n i was like ew no. but haha ummm we had to leave bc there was lightning. but ummm on the way back it was super fun bc Lindsey told us stories about high school and well ya it was just hilarious. but tomorrow I have musical prac. but Im gonna hang out with matt . . . lol happy now?!? ya but ummmmmmm idk wut else to say! so l8rzz